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kawllege kid .

Hello! today's post is inspired by the journey I have taken the past week
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 Like spoken about in a previous blog post, I have officially unofficially started college classes. Although it isn't truly the real deal yet, I realized I had nothing to be afraid of.

Initially, the night before the first day I honestly had no idea what to expect, I wasn't nervous or anxious about starting, in fact I was rather excited. I had some sort of fear I couldn't quite put my finger on, I think it had more to do with being in a room of brand new faces. In grade school we are used to being  around the same damn faces and people daily, not really being challenged to step out on our own and come across new people and new surroundings. I was worried i'd mess up before being even able to start. Worried about what was unknown was keeping me from myself,and greater opportunities.

On the first day, I had no idea where my class was, where to park, where to pay for parking and was worried about being late. Luckily, I didn't have to do this all on my own, I had my buddy Erick with me who came along for the ride and kept me cool headed , i also found  some friendly workers on the campus to help me figure out the parking and class situation location. I got to check those two things that kept me worried off my list of things I  was worried about,

my teacher is the cutest little Asian man who does a good job of helpings us out, making us laugh, and letting us leave early. On top of this whole new experience, he helped make easing into it a lot more simple. I am grateful for my experience and happy I wasn't totally alone. I  am looking forward to what more is to come.

what i have gained from just this one week is,

  • helps from others is totally and complete vital and important, you need more than nust yourself
  • don't stop yourself from being a better you (how cliche)
  • worrying makes your skin wrinkle and lose its glow


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this post is for those who are entering something totally brand new for the first time. It is okay to be afraid and nervous of where you may go next, but don't let it hold you back for  whats in store.
 Take a breath and relax, every one else is just as lost and confused as you.
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 All there is left is my orientation date, then I'm off to the big leagues.
         keep me (and my financial aid issues) all in your best wishes 
                                                                     as always thank you for listening, 
                                                                                             xoxo
                                                                                                  -Em
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the things around .

This post may seem a little word-y, I tried condensing my thoughts, any who, I hope you stick all the way through.



Today's post is about the smaller things. This morning I had somewhat of a revelation. I sometimes just sit and think and then one thought leads to another, and somehow, it always ends up in a "woe is me"state of mind. I literally (well, not literally) slapped myself in the face to get myself out of this trans. I just thought of all the terrible things happening. Things like ISIS and innocent people being killed and families who have no palace to live. How awful am I to complain about my life when it could be so much worse?

Now, I understand that things happen, and I am not saying that just because I may have a steady meal and a warm home that I have no right to be sad and cry. I (and we) have the same right to be upset and cry about our situations. What I'm just trying to put across I guess is that when you feel that way, when life really kicks you, to just remember the good things that are happening and be grateful, be so so grateful, because you can be without so much more. Don't let the problems fool you, you are alive and AREN'T fighting a war or disease or total chaos in your life, you have the ability to move and breath on your own. Don't take the small things for granted it's SSSOOO easy to forget we are blessed

Finally, I also believe we sometimes forget of all the tragic events around the world when it doesn't apply to us. It honestly breaks my heart so incredibly much that things happen to others that we cant stop. I try to remind myself when I'm in a bad mood and  respond to someone crappy, I ask myself,  am I adding to something they are already going through? We are around so many people daily, and aren't even aware of half of the battle they may dealing with.When that small voice in your head tells you things that make you sad or the arguments or events in your life make your life seem dark, when that happens think of the good things that ARE happening to you. You'll be okay I promise, I promise
to sum everything up, its okay to be sad, don't dwell on it though. Appreciate what you have, put others in consideration, you aren't the only one having a bad day.
The grass isn't always greener, as they say. But rather, appreciate that you even have grass at all








if you stuck around all the way to the end, thank you.
xoxo .
-Em



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the start of something new

     As I come closer and closer to my 18th birthday I am realizing many things, all of which are scary.
1. that I am actually growing older
2. things are about to change, some for the better, others for the worst
3. c o l l e g e
and the list goes on. But, with all these changes that are to come, I realize disappointment is also a monster I will have to battle. With great change comes turmoil along the way. With rejection letters, and struggling to maintain current grades, while trying to keep up socially, it is all a bit overwhelming. I find myself sliding  into a slump i'm trying to avoid falling into. But, in order to succeed and learn, do I allow myself to fall into this slump? Are we supposed to fall and fail completely to learn and succeed, or can we look and see it in our path and try to avoid it?

     Along with rejection letters, as a literal rejection, life has also give me metaphorical rejections. No one likes to be rejected, so how do we avoid or deal with the pain of rejection and change while still trying to swim above the water? Well, for starters, I have learned holding on to the positive  and surrounding yourself with the good really helps. As life rushes forward, friends come and go, events will happen that I must prepare for. I am trying to also prepare myself for things that may not be. I believe some friendships can remain after high school, I do a pretty good job with keeping up, but I know that sometimes, people just drift. The people I have surrounded myself with have such golden souls, that the thought of losing contact with them actually hurts. They have become some sort of weird family I have gathered along the way.

     As time changes things, I am trying to grasp the idea of loss, gain, rejection, pain, + the newness life will bring me. Most of all I do not want life to change me, I am content with my morals and heart, I do not want this world to turn me bitter. As all of these thoughts (and then some) rush through my mind daily, I know that I have a greater calling and wont let the darker things of life darken my bright spirit.

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thank you .
xoxo .
-Em
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